Death...the only solution.

Thursday, November 20, 2008

so boredd..

had training today as usual..

then me & twinnie started to tie the "sushi" table together.. -.-

hiazz.

sometimes i wonder..

why dosen't the tension stay there even thougt we do the correct procedure??

frustrating.

my hands all 'lan diao' oready..

so tired these few days.

thats why during training i can barely keep my eyes open..

kinda nearly fanited yesterday due to the lack of water..

haa.

i'm jux so retarded.

goin to chun's house to do the total defence tomorrow..

penguin & twinnie oso goin..

i'm so tired but i cant sleep.

whad to do??

i feel like flying outta da windo and jux crash onto the ground,

then appear in another world where all my worries are forgotten,

and all the good and nice memories are re-lived all over again..

all his can NEVER happen.

whad to do??

FORGET IT.

i'm gonna burst soon..

i hate this sickening feeling SO much.

IT SUCKS TO THE MAXX.

maybe i'll jux go mad.

or i'll jux crash my head on the damn wall and forget EVERYTHING.

my happy, jolly side only lasts for a while.

that happy me only comes alive when i'm at trainings or doin footdrill.

the happiness then flys away when i'm at home,

cos my home is not EXACTLY a happy place..

my happiness is all fake.

not much REAL happiness comes to me.

thats why i hate me, my life, myself.

FUCK.

i can't take it anymore.

attempted suicide at 7:34 PM